can't stop crying

That might sound like title of a country western song, but it’s all too real an experience when your spouse/partner has died.

After my husband’s death, I felt like the tears would never stop.

I remember being at work, in social situations, or just driving and finding myself unexpectedly tearing up. Caught off-guard and often embarrassed, I’d head for the nearest private place (like a restroom or quiet street), to try to pull myself together.

I realize some people consider crying a form of self-pity.

But I’ve learned that tears are nature’s way of helping us release tension. The best way to do the mourning is to do the grieving. And that means every tear helps.

So trust yourself. Your mind does have a shut-off valve.

How have you handled these situations?



Unknown said...

I lost my husband four weeks ago today.....the tears show up like you say at unexpected times. I'll think I'm doing "ok" and out of the blue I feel them coming upon me - I pretty much let them come because I also feel it helps to let them take their course. I don't think crying is a form of self pity - certainly not after going through loosing your husband of so many years. I have to say I hope it gets better because it is really really tough. I think bottom line is, one day at a time. We have to realize some days will be better than others and we just have to accept that. It sounds so good in writing but man it is hard to live it!!! We can only try.......even if we don't want to. Hope it's getting easier for you Ruth.

Donna H.

Ruth said...

Dear Donna,

Thank you for your comment.

Right now you’re going through the most difficult period of a loss but as I and others have discovered, it really does get better with time.

Take care and please stay in touch.


calljudyb said...

It's been 6 months since my husband died. Even though I knew it was coming and there was the pre-death grieving period, the months immediately following his death were busy. Now things have slowed down and I miss him so much. There are just so many episodes of tearing up and I'm trying to keep it together, but it's is so lonely and I've never been alone. I look at the years ahead and wonder how I'm going to keep going.

Ruth & Laurie said...

Looking ahead can seem overwhelming, so try to just focus on one day at a time ( a cliché but useful) With time, the pain will soften.

Have you considered joining a local widowed group? It can be a good place to connect with others who share your concerns and issues. Any group involvement (through your community center/place of worship), offers more options for battling loneliness.

Take care of yourself and please stay in touch.

Jodi said...

My husband sudden passed away 6 weeks ago. There were no warnings and they could not find a reason for his passing. His doctor says that he may have died from S.U.D.E.P. (Sudden Unexplained Death in Epilepsy). He passed on my birthday while I was at work. I was supposed to take the day off but I was home sick the day before and didn't want to take two days off in a row. If I had stayed home I may have been able to help or save him. Instead I was at work and he was home ...alone. I left him alone. I know exactly what you mean when you talk about crying all of a sudden. I can't even say his name without falling apart. I'm so sorry I didn't stay home that day. I can only seem to get 3 hours of sleep each night. I toss and turn for hours before I cry myself to sleep. Sometimes I think it'll never stop. So many people keep saying, "Each day it'll get better" but it doesn't. Each day is just another day without him. I don't think I've ever been this sad.

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Jodi,

Sorry about the delay in reading your comment – we’ve been having technical problems.

Given the circumstances around your husband’s sudden, unexpected death, your reactions are certainly understandable. It sounds as though you’re battling with guilt and remorse at not having somehow prevented the death. This dilemma will complicate anyone’s ability to move through the grieving process. At some point, you may find it helpful to get support with these issues from a professional (a medical social worker at your hospital can refer you to a qualified grief counselor). Take care of yourself and please keep in touch and let us know how you’re doing.

Anonymous said...

I lost my husband of 5 years in a car accident 9 months ago. When i walk by his picture on my bedside table i will not look into his eyes, i will just glance and look away, I do the same thing when i run across his picture on my computer. My mind is consumed with the pictures of the wreck, it made the front page of the newspaper so its all over the internet. I have gone through a few months without crying at all but the last few days I cry on and off all day long, I have found myself once again consumed with questions, and getting angry at his mother who he left a large insurance policy to, in which i waived any rights to because I trusted that she would help me with "our" bills ( which she hasnt) I have no job and am living on $130 per month and hand outs. I know everyone thinks I can and need to get out and find a job but all I do is sit at home like a prison with no exit. In theory I want to, but I cant. Fear has gripped me and I just sit and think about him and us and the future. I wonder how long i am going to be this way, or will i ever get over it.

Laurie and Ruth said...

An unexpected death, the resulting publicity and financial complications have understandably complicated your ability to grieve. You’ve probably been in shock and now the real pain of what’s happened is hitting you.

It’s also normal to feel anger over a sense of being abandoned.

Consider joining an online widowed support group such as griefnet.com and/or local widowed groups sponsored by hospitals or places of worship.

Also check out our other posts for support on some of the above.

Take care and keep us posted.

Anonymous said...

My husband was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on 5/18/2013 - he passed away on 6/7/2013. I hadn't even processed the diagnosis when he passed. I feel my world coming apart. I'm afraid of having to re-do my life. I find myself crying all the time. Co-workers just let me and never say a word, driving home is scary because I'm usually crying. I cant go through his things, I don't listen to music. I pray everyday - I want to dream of him, and I don't. I find myself begging God to let be with him. Will this ever stop? Lost!!!

Laurie and Ruth said...

All the reactions you describe although difficult, are normal symptoms of an unanticipated and recent loss. Try not to pressure yourself into going through your husband’s belongings yet or making any important decisions now. Trust yourself to know when the time is right for you to tackle difficult tasks.

With time, the pain does soften but try to be gentle and patient with yourself as you mourn your great loss.

For safety’s sake, please pull over while driving whenever the tears start.

It may help to also read the chapter in our book and/or our blog post re returning to work.

Please let us know how you’re doing.

We care.

Maria said...

My husband died on July 1st from a rare form of skin cancer. He was doing so well and he was so optimistic then he is not feeling well and four days later he is gone. We were together for 25 years and my life is over. It hurts so much and I just want to be with him. Why do people say just hold on to the memories. My God the memories are what hurt the most because there will be no more memories to make. I think of him or look at his picture and it feels as if someone is tearing my heart out. Three weeks and it is no better and maybe even worse!!

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Maria,

Others often say things that don't feel helpful at the time, usually because they feel helpless in the

What you're going through right now is one of the most difficult experiences in life and only you can know what feels right for you.

It sounds like your loss was, in a way, unexpected, as your husband was doing ok and then suddenly he wasn't. The shock of an unexpected loss takes a while to come to terms with.

Please try to be patient with yourself and give yourself permission not to be your usual self for some time yet.

Let us know how it goes. We care.

Kathy said...

It has been 3 months since my husband died and until the last couple of weeks I have been doing ok. But now I feel like I am falling apart. I don't know how to get through this. My husband was 61 and I am 60. He has not left me in a very good financial sitsation and he was self employed. I lost my job 3 years ago and I am not working. I am empty.

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Kathy,

Following a death, we're in shock and operating on "automatic", just to get through what needs to be done.

But eventually the pain of the loss hits home.

Sounds like there's the added burden of financial issues. Are there any reliable, trustworthy family, friends or community resources who can offer support and advice?

Be sure to also check with Social Security (call or go online), to explore possible survivor benefits you may be entitled to.

Take care and let us know how you're doing.

Thanks for your comment.

Karen said...

Hi, I just my husband two weeks ago. We'd been to gether 38 years.. He'd been in the hospital 5 months, and things were getting worse. I had to make the extremely difficult decision to put him in palliative care. Although we'd discussed all this when he was healthy, and he'd specified that he'd never want to live in such horrible quality of life, I almost feel guilty. Like the others above, I cry at the most unexpected moments, and usually when I feel that I'm doing not too bad. Difficult stuff all this

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Karen,

Difficult stuff all this is right!

Even when important decisions are planned, having to act on those decisions is never easy. It's normal to struggle with feelings of guilt in the aftermath of these situations. Remind yourself that you did the best you could under extremely difficult circumstances. You might read our chapter "Battling Guilt and Remorse" in our book, for some tips on coping with these feelings.

Tears and "sneak attacks of crying" are to be expected for
some time. But as we say, "Every tear helps!"

Take care and let us know how you're doing down the road.

Thanks for sharing with us.

Anonymous said...

My husband died of a sudden massive heart attack in our yard 3 months and three days ago. I still can't believe it some days and other days it seems like he has been gone forever. I tried to join a grief group last night but dissolved into tears before we even got started. People say snap out of it. Others say it's been three months you have to start moving on. He was 62 and we had been married 40+ years and were just planning on all of the things we were going to do in our retirement. Selling our RV and boat where we had had so much fun and looking forward to much more has been so hard. I cry sometime during the day every day. When will it stop??

Laurie and Ruth said...

Any sudden, unexpected loss always complicates the mourning process.

It's much too soon to expect yourself (or let others pressure you) to feel or act like your usual self. When people say things like "snap out it", it's usually because they feel helpless and/or frightened by the reality that what's happened to you could happen to them.

Put off making any important decisions for the rest of the year.

It sounds like it's just too soon to be in a widowed group. For now, you might find one-on-one grief counseling a better option for finding support. Contact the group leader and ask for a referral.

Thanks for your comment.

Anonymous said...

I lost my husband 6 mos. ago. I was married for 40 yrs. We met in July 1973 and got married October 1973 I guess you could say it was love at first sight.We had 2 daughters and was blessed with 4 grandchildren. Everyday I cry it is so hard sometimes I just can't deal with him not being here. As I write this tears are flowing. Ialmost fell for scam on the internet stupid me I am so lonely and people that lost their loved ones know what we are all going thru. I have to keep on working just to keep my sanity if I didn't I'd just get to depressed.

Laurie and Ruth said...

It's wise to beware of internet scams, especially when you're so vulnerable.

You might consider looking into a widowed group, for support and a way to feel less lonely.

We appreciate your comment.

Please let us know how it goes.

Anonymous said...

I lost my partner of almost 2 years, I've known him four years prior and with him being gone so suddenly it just takes me to a place I've never been before. I haven't gone to counseling I guess because I thought I didn't need to. We were in a car accident but his life was the only one taken that day and just seeing him the way i saw him, something no one should ever see I just have all these questions. All these unanswered questions, feelings, thoughts that will never be clarified. He turned everything around for me and died so young. I miss him so much i may not have had that many years with him but for the past year and a half we slept next to each other, woke up next to each other. I was actually in a comfortable place. I found out that I was pregnant the day he died and now have to raise a child on my own. He's been gone almost three months now it's just so hard on me.

Laurie and Ruth said...

The trauma of a sudden loss as well as going through an unexpected pregnancy is quite a lot to deal with.

The length of a relationship is less important than what that relationship meant.

While it hasn't been long since the loss, please consider reaching out to others for support. Being young, it can be even more isolating to be widowed.

Check out some of our other posts
and consider GriefNet.org for online support groups for younger people who have lost a partner.

Take care and let us know if we can be of more help.

Brenda said...

I lost my husband 3 1/2 weeks ago after a brief illness. we were supposed to have at least 6 months together, but long story short, he got pneumonia, sepsis, and cdiff which took him before the cancer could. I feel so much better reading these posts. I felt like there was something wrong with me that I am crying so much. every time I think of him, I can feel the tears start to come. I lost both of my parents and my husband in a 20 month period. Losing my parents was really really hard, but I didn't know there could be pain to compare of losing my husband. I miss him SO very much. we were together 15 years. We were supposed to go old together, I feel like we were ripped off. thank you for having this blog. It truly helps to know I'm not alone in my grief.

marie said...

I lost my partner 4 weeks ago. He died of an anurism We had been together 11 years. He was the love of my life and we were so happy. He was only 54 and loved life. He told me before he died how much he loved me and he died in my arms. I am so devastated. I am 44 and I feel like my world has ended. We didn't have children together but I am close to his daughter. We loved life so much I just can't bear the pain of losing him.

Anonymous said...

Hi I have just lost my wife 3 weeks ago and the funeral is this week.i can't stop crying all the time please help me

Unknown said...

I lost my husband two weeks ago. We had been together almost 22 years. I can't get past the overwhelming sadness and despair that has taken over my soul since he passed. He had suffered from liver disease and cancer. He was gone 2 months after being diagnosed. I don't think I'll ever be happy again...I try for our son's sake, but inside it feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. Before this happened, I rarely ever cried. Now I cry, sob, several times a day. Don't know when, or even how, this pain is ever going to end. He was my soul mate, my best friend, the love of my life. I'm 45 years old. Assuming I live into my 80's...that's a long time to have to go without him.

devastated said...

I have sons and grandchildren but they do not fill the empty place in my life.

Anonymous said...

I have four children, two under the age of five. I lost my husband whom I have been with for over twenty years, ten days ago from pancreatic cancer. He was my entire world and I don' know how I will be able to go on without him. I am just devastated and I just want him back. How do you go on? How do you get through the day? I hold on everyday to my children and tell myself I must be strong for them but honestly, I am just falling apart.

Anonymous said...

I lost my husband of 37 years 3 weeks ago an expected death due to cancer, I find screaming and ranting help me, life is unfair and I cry and shout because he and I have suffered an injustice. I hope I will be ok for my kids friends and parents, and hope that by letting it all out I can remember the good times and not avoid memories and photos.

Anonymous said...

My husband passed away 12 days ago unexpectedly. Can't stop crying. When I am not crying I walk around like a zombie. The living dead. I want to be dead. It hurts so bad. I have told my family and friends who were with me to go back home as I just want to cry like a baby without inhibiting my tears. We were only together for one year and had so many plans for the future. I cannot get out of this dark hole. I sit huddled up and wear his clothes every day. I don't go anywhere because everything reminds me of him. Can't listen to music because it reminds me of him. I miss his smile, his voice, his laugh, his hugs, his kisses. I find myself reaching out my hand and crying for him to touch me just one last time. I cannot believe he is gone. Please help me!

Laurie and Ruth said...

It's been a very short time since your loss occurred and you're still in shock and disbelief.

Whenever a death is unexpected, it takes a while to make sense of what has happened. Your wish to be alone from the pressures of other people's reactions is understandable.

While some isolation is appropriate, please try to let a few people you feel comfortable with spend a little time with you. In addition to their own reactions to the loss, others like to feel they can support you in some way. You might ask them to shop for groceries, deal with bills and/or other paperwork, etc.

In the meantime, give yourself permission to not be your normal self. Coming to terms with what has happened will take time and you shouldn't rush or pressure yourself. Be gentle with yourself. And remember - every tear counts.

Let us know how it goes.

Mike said...

My wife was killed in a car crash we were both in. The other driver was drunk and speeding. It happened last November. I was hospitalised in a critical condition, my wife died instantly. I find myself becoming tearful when I think of her, but time is helping me heal. She loved life, we shared everything, now there is emptiness. I'm slowly going through her stuff, clearing things out and trying to rebuild a life. I'm 53 and have years ahead of me to fill. I feel guilty about finding love with someone else, but I know life moves on and I can't bring her back. Sometimes I feel it's a dream I'm going to wake from and she's going to come through the door anytime. I wish I could dream about her, I miss her so much. Sometimes I feel I want to kill the other driver. He's only 26. That's wrong of course.

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Mike,

All the feelings you describe are normal and understandable. While you're justified in your anger toward the young driver responsible for your loss, it's good that you're also aware there's a difference between feeling rage and acting on that rage.

Because you're still relatively young, you may be feeling pressure from others to "get on" with your life. But it's still very soon since the trauma you've experienced and you also need to take more time to grieve the loss of your wife and life partner.

Men often jump into dating as an easy way to feel less lonely, but if you haven't taken enough time to mourn one relationship, you won't emotionally be ready for a new one, and this isn't fair to the new person.

While it's not uncommon to feel disloyal to a late spouse once a widower starts dating, this will be less of an issue if you've given yourself the painful but necessary time to truly be ready for this step.

Please give yourself more time and you'll know when you're truly ready to start dating.

Let us know how things go.

Anonymous said...

I lost my husband 6 weeks and 6 days ago. He had been diagnosed with diabetes just three weeks before, but was by no means terminal and was being followed very closely by his doctor. His death was very sudden and unexpected. We have two children, one under the age of 4. We had been very happily married for 13 years and I feel like I am doing much better than I should be. The first couple of days after he passed I was an absolute mess. But I haven't really cried in nearly 5 weeks. I tear up on occasion if I am talking about him, but that's it. I have read about delayed grief and i am really worried about it. How can I fall apart several months down the road when everyone else has moved on? I am also really worried about living the rest of my life without him given he passed just 6 days after my 40th birthday. And I still don't know what happened. 6 weeks and 6 days later and the coroner's office still hasn't given me a cause of death. This also weighs very heavily on mind.

Laurie and Ruth said...

Keep in mind that no 2 people grieve in the same way, even when they've lost the same person. That said, it's understandable that while important information about your husband's death is still in limbo, it may not feel "safe" to really let down and cry.

The problems and responsibilities surrounding a sudden death can keep us on "auto-pilot" as we struggle to cope day to day.

It's still a very short time since your loss and you are still in shock. You may also not have a lot of privacy in which to grieve.

There's no "right" time to cry but it's important to be gentle with yourself right now and remember that when the time is right for YOU, the tears will come.

Anonymous said...

I lost my husband last year after 45 years together.. I am now completely alone. But I am going through a rough patch and don't know how to get out of it. I have good days but just lately I've gone to pieces ... I miss him dreadfully and wish he would come home... It is causing me so much pain I ache everywhere. I am 76 and alone... Any advice to help me get through this would be welcome. Thank you...l

Laurie and Ruth said...

It's possible you may be experiencing an "anniversary reaction". Most intense the first year after a loss, these grief reactions can be triggered when a significant date comes up again, such as the day your husband died, your wedding anniversary, or a special occasion that you might have shared if he were still alive.

You can defuse some of the anxiety about experiencing these anniversary reactions by understanding what's triggered them and giving yourself some time to grieve and be sad. Trying to ignore or avoid these normal reactions will only result in a "sneak attack" of the emotions that need to be given attention.

You mention you're alone. Perhaps being isolated is adding to your discomfort. Consider getting together with a supportive friend or family member on these painful dates, or look into joining a widowed support group in your community (ask your doctor to refer you to someone who can help with resources). There are also online support groups on GriefNet.org that you may find helpful.

Or you may be best helped by individual counseling with a qualified grief counselor (your doctor or local mental health centers can refer you). Many people feel much better after just a few sessions with a professional counselor.

Let us know how it goes.

Unknown said...

My husband died July 26, 2015 and I can't stop the tears. During the day I pretend everything is ok - I go to work, I clean the garage, close his company - everything I can do to keep busy and not think. And the moment I sit still, look at a picture or remember our last days together I start to cry. We had such hope that he would beat his cancer, but the cancer beat him. He was my best friend for almost 31 years. There was so much I wanted to say and I ran out of time. He will never hold my hand, make me laugh or talk to me again. I miss him so much. How does one move forward from this? How does one forgive themselves for all the things they didn't say? How does one stop crying?

Laurie and Ruth said...

Dear Joanne,

Please try to give yourself permission to not be your usual self at this time. It's been less than a month since your husband's death and believe it or not, just getting out of bed each morning is a major achievement for anyone in your situation.

Consider reading some of our posts that discuss some of the symptoms/concerns you've expressed here. They may help you better understand your reactions as normal and very understandable.

Keep in mind that every tear does count. Try to patient and give yourself the time you really need to mourn for this cherished relationship.

Over time, the pain will soften but right now give yourself a pat on the back for every day you just make it through.

Let us know how you do.

Anonymous said...

My husband died unexpectedly on August 4th.
He suffered a brain injury, but mostly recovered. I could see differences in him no one else could. About 2 years into his recovery he started drinking. He suffered severe chronic neck pain from a previous injury and had been prescribed narcotic pain killers. The past 4 months of his life he started acting paranoid and thought I was talking to some other man. He could not overcome his paranoia. He suffered depression and went into a crisis mode.Every step of the way I was there for him. I always did my best to put his mind at ease. But in May of this year it got to the point where I asked him to move out because I was losing my soul trying to care for him. I told him I loved him and had no interest in a relationship with another man but his paranoia and odd behavior became more than I was capable of handling. He hated himself and felt awful for how he treated me. He was in the process of trying to get into a program to get off pain med and alcohol, but also felt trapped due to his chronic pain. I was in my own crises mode from fatigue and accusations. I tried to show him love while at the same time setting boundaries. He got to drinking August 4th and abruptly had stopped his pain medication 3 days prior. I told him he could not quit abruptly that he would have a seizure. August 4th I checked on him just before bed. He was drunk, but told me he was fine. 4 hours later I checked on him and he was laying on the floor dead. I started CPR, but knew with every rib cracking that I was trying to save a dead man. I called 911 and my life and my daughter's life have forever changed. I know he was heading out the front door to have a cigarette and had a seizure. He had one in the past when he abruptly stopped his medications and my greatest fear came true. I was horrified and in shock for days. The sole support of our income come to a screeching halt. I found a note later on his computer expressing his depression. He felt like he had lost his family and this his life was hopeless and a lost cause. He wrote him much love and support I had given him and how I stood by him thru his brain injury. He wrote the unbearable pain he felt inside for letting me thru such misery. He believed the world would be better off without him. He was in his own hell and I didn't see the seriousness of the crises he was enduring. That very day we had gone on a trip. I told him I had forgiven him and I just wanted him to get help. I told him when he finished the program I would trust him again until he proved otherwise. I told him I needed my own healing, but was confident over time things would work out. At 8:30 pm he said he was stopping by auto zone to buy stuff to fix the small chip in my windshield. So I don't think his death was intentional, but I don't know for sure. His autopsy revealed he had a large tumor in his one kidney the size of his kidney and a enlarged heart.
I have extreme guilt.I have a heaviness in my lungs and sometimes it's hard to breathe. I feel like if I said or did something different the outcome would have changed. As much as he had put me through, I certainly didn't want him to die. We both depended on each other in different ways. I'm not coping well. I live an hour from family and it's just me and my daughter. I joined a grief support group and look online for any help when I start feeling overwhelmed. I know I'm tormenting myself, but the feelings won't stop.
I am extra careful around my daughter. She has seen me be tearful and cry some, but I don't want her worrying about me. She has her own grief and I try to be there for her. It's hard to do anything fun because the entire time I wishing he was there also. We were married 12 years and I never thought our life together would end like this. The pain is unbearable. I'm wondering when a person starts to feel better after the loss of a spouse.

Laurie and Ruth said...

It sounds like you've been through quite an ordeal.

In addition to your husband's unexpected death, you're having to cope with the fallout from his neurological and physical problems as well as the resulting personality changes and his having self-medicated with alcohol.

I sounds like you did everything possible to survive in extremely painful and frightening circumstances.

Guilt can be terribly burdensome following a death. It's normal to feel that no matter how much we've struggled to help our spouse, we still feel we've somehow failed. This is usually about our ultimate helplessness to prevent a loved one's end (see our post about battling guilt and remorse).

Given the many issues affecting your ability to mourn, you might find it most helpful to get one-on-one counseling with a qualified mental health professional. While a widowed group can be helpful at validating grief reactions, you seem to be struggling with many other concerns that are all probably kicking in emotionally right now.

We suggest you contact a social worker at your local hospital or your doctor for referrals to qualified therapists. There are also good support resources for grieving children. If there are none in your community, there's a good online site, Kidsaid.com.

Please let us know if we can be of further help.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

My husband of 51 yrs died suddenly 2 yrs ago and I must say it doesn't get better. I cry every day. I miss him so much. Just a special song or place upsets me so much. I don't think it will ever get better as I loved him so much.

Laurie and Ruth said...

To have lost the partner you shared most of your life with, and unexpectedly, must have shaken your entire world.

In addition to mourning the loss of your loved one, you may also be experiencing other losses since the death. Changes in how we view ourselves and how others view us when we're no longer part of a "couple" can be painful adjustments. Additional changes in finances and or other forms of security are other consequences of being widowed.

It's not unusual to become depressed by the many additional changes/losses after a death. It sounds like you might find some one-on-one counseling with a mental health professional helpful in sorting out how much of your distress is due to bereavement and what is clinical depression, which can be treated and relieved with professional support.

Consider asking your doctor to refer you to a qualified counselor.

Please let us know how you're doing.

Unknown said...

My husband passed 6 months ago on our 6 month anniversary he had a heart disease we didn't no about "the widow maker" I woke to hin grasping for air our children and I tried to save ryan but there was nothing we could do he was only 42 years old I miss him dearly I had a fire tonight and put his urn in the table next to me where we always sat . I learned something tonight I didn't only lose my husband and father to our children but my only true friend of my life because if u look around there's Noone around but yourself I feel very lonely

Laurie and Ruth said...

Losing your life partner so unexpectedly and at such a young age, can feel very frightening, especially when you look ahead and are facing raising children.

Consider reading our posts for younger widows and those with children. Losing a spouse while young poses special challenges that older widowed people don't always understand. Feeling isolated because there aren't many people your age who've been through such a loss is a common dilemma.

You might check out Griefnet.org, which has several online support groups for younger widowed as well as those with children. Depending on your children's ages, there is Kidsaid.com, a grief support site for kids of all ages.

Please try to give yourself time to mourn and keep in mind that down the road, the pain will soften. In the meantime, try to find support either online or in your community (your local hospital social workers are a good source of referrals to bereavement groups).

Please let us know if there are more ways we can help.

Anonymous said...

My beloved husband passed 53 days ago ; (.. its really unexpected! I dont want to live anymore! We've been together for almost 17 years... he's very kind and love us very much... we have 2 kids... since the day he left me... half of me is also with him! I cried almost everyday... when I wake up in the morning only him in my mind... sometimes I'm mad at him because he left me! I always ask agod why he get my husband! I dont know if I will continue my life without him... I really loved and miss mu husband! I want to be with him... soon...; (; (; (

Laurie and Ruth said...

Your feelings are understandable, especially with such an unexpected death.

While it's common to imagine being reunited with a loved one in death, becoming serious about actually acting on this fantasy is a SERIOUS problem that requires professional help RIGHT NOW. If you find yourself going beyond yearning to be with your husband, tell your doctor and/or contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline (1-800-273-8255)or ask your local operator to connect to a suicide hotline in your area.

The pain you're experiencing right now WILL soften with time but do you really want to leave your children without BOTH of their parents for the rest of their lives? Keep in mind too, that there's a strong chance of children copying suicidal behavior when a parent takes his or her own life.

Get professional right now to help you make it through the days ahead.

Anonymous said...

Lost my soulmate a month ago - time has stood still for me since. Tonight I howled because I just want him back so much. I know other family members love him and miss him but my heart has been torn out. Hard to know how I can go on. Love him always.

Kathy said...

Donna, I can so identify with you. l lost Bill (my husband of 48 years) two weeks ago after a very short illness. I don't think my son in law will ever sit in church with me again, as I cried through the entire service this past Sunday. I think he was embarrassed. I was crying to hard to be embarrassed. The saddest part is, i don't know why I was crying. I loved going to church with Bill, I suppose I was grieving the loss of that activity. I was working in California on a contract job (I am a travel nurse) and Bill was traveling with me. We have no family or friends in CA, so I was alone when he got sick and passed away. I flew home to bury him, and almost couldn't get off the plane. Every time I have flown home alone in the past, Bill has met me at airport and took me out to "celebrate" my return home. When we landed it dawned once that I will never again fly home and find him waiting there for me. I feel so lost! For so many years it was Bill and Kathy or Kathy and Bill. Now it is just Kathy. Bill was my safety net, he was always there to help me, to pick me up if I fell, to give me advice, just there for me. Now I don't have a safety net, and I feel like my feet are slipping and it's a long way down. I feel so alone. I just don't know what to do. I gave up my jb to take care of him, never dreaming that he would not recover. I am ashamed to say I sometimes complained about taking care of him. Now I would give anything to have him back to take care of!